I'll never understand it

Today started out good. I colored my hair this morning and despite the fact that the instructions were all in Hebrew, the color came out better than it ever has before. So it's a happy hair day. I'm really thankful that you can find instructions in English for just about anything on the Internet — from Loreal Preference hair color to HP printers and ovens made in Germany!

I worked a bit more, then took a break to fix lunch. It was a new recipe and it turned out great! Ahhh. God must love me bunches. Back to work and making a lot of progress on my projects. Listening to great Christmas music. Yep. Life is good in general.

Then I got an email from Bonnie asking if I was okay; evidently there was another suicide bombing in Israel today. And all of the sudden, all the good just seems so stinking trivial. Obviously, I'm fine. Physically, I'm fine. Emotionally, I'm so angry. I just don't understand how a 19 year old boy can strap explosives to himself and try to take a bunch of innocent people with him. Nor can I understand a religion that rewards this behavior; or the mother that claims she is proud of her son for his "heroic" actions. I guess senseless violence happens everywhere. The motivation just takes on different forms, from religion to retaliation to drugs or money, but the motivator is always the same: sheer evil.

Logistically, today's bombing happened in Natanya, which is a town just north of Tel Aviv—not too close to my beloved Jerusalem, but of course security is on high alert across the nation now. For the past few years, Israel has been building a security fence on borders between it and Palistinian territories. It's been very controversial, but personally I think it helps keep Israel a little safer. Well that, along with the fact that God is still on His throne. And I think that the truth is that He gives us the good things to help us through the bad times.

I'm struggling for words. Maybe the only words that are appropriate are: Pray for the peace of Jerusalem. Please.