January 1st came and went this year and I didn't even notice. I was a little too busy being a slave for my friend who was getting married. Hmm. "Always a bridesmaid..." doesn't even apply to me; it's more like, "Always a personal attendant..." I guess if I were a glass-half-full type of girl, I'd think, "wow--all these people really need me to be there for them on their important day." But since I'm more of a who-drank-half-my-coke?? kinda girl, I usually feel used and abused afterwards. Whine, whine, whine. Enough of that. My friend is one of the few women I know that truly, truly deserves to be truly, madly, deeply happy with a real man who loves everything about her. Way to go Julie!! I love you to pieces!
So, with everything to do with the wedding, it's already the sixth and not only did I not make any resolutions, I'm sure that if I had, I would have already fallen off the wagon, optimist that I am. But now that big events and holidays are no longer consuming my time I guess I should try to come up with some things to resolve. Hmmm.
• Lose weight? Well that's been on my list since 1978, I think.
• Start my own PBS show? I'll try to work on that one.
• Keep my house clean? Might happen if I clean it then lock myself out.
• Get all my finances in order? Okay, I'm honestly going to work on that one.
I think the one thing I really need to work on is being more positive and encouraging. I'm sure that would be more helpful to me and everyone else concerned. I just have to try to cut out some of the cynicism. U2's new album has a song called "Yaweh" that I love. It's all about redemption--asking God to change everything because I know I can't do it by myself. My favorite line is, "take these lips, so quick to criticize, take these lips, give them a kiss." Only God can kiss away all the mean and evil things that I let come out of my mouth. I need to read Job 38 again... the part where Job has been complaining and God answers him: Then the Lord answered Job out of the storm. He said: "Who is this that darkens my counsel with words without knowledge? Brace yourself like a man; I will question you, and you shall answer me. "Where were you when I laid the earth's foundation? Tell me, if you understand."
And it goes on. Job's answer: "I am unworthy-how can I reply to you? I put my hand over my mouth. I spoke once, but I have no answer-twice, but I will say no more." Job 40:4-5. There's wisdom for you—humility before God. If I could only begin to look for the good in people and see their potential, instead of being quick to criticize, maybe my lips would be a little more attractive.
Well that's it. Resolution #1 for 2005: Let God change my heart and wash my mouth out with soap.
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2 comments:
goodness...this could have been me writing this!
i was amazed to find after my own wedding that i was LESS exhausted than every wedding i had been in previously. i thought i'd come up with the phrase, "always the guestbook attendant, never the bride." then, i signed on to be "personal attendant" for one of my bridesmaids who's getting married this summer. am bracing myself for "unpaid trained monkey" mode. but i love her and know that any exhaustion will be worth it.
and as my husband has said many a time, "karen doesn't share coke."
M'lis,
If I come home and I find that my mom has locked me out of the house...I'm going to assume miss tidy pants has read your post. :)
Ok pass the dial, irish spring, Lever 2000, whatever you got! :) I do kind of miss our gripe sessions though.
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